July 12, 2013
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And Yet, My Heart
And yet, my heart...
When amazing people come into my life, they have a tendency to take up residence in my heart in the most natural and unobtrusive of ways. There's an emotional connection that is both tender and mutually joyful. These are people for whom I care deeply. As a matter of fact, if you were to ask me if love them, I'd say yes without hesitation. The problem with this truth is that it often gives way to unrealistic expectations of my heart.
What do I mean by that?
Simply this... my rational mind knows and understands that these people have other extrinsic relationships. In my head it's completely logical that I'm one of many other people who may occupy space in their lives... and yet, my heart...
It doesn't change the pull inside me which yearns for so much more of them... the part that desires their ongoing presence nonetheless. I've tried unsuccessfully to manage this contradiction of mind and heart. And I've can come up with reason upon reason why this is so foolish... and yet, my heart...
It's not that I even expect people to understand the irrational nature of my heart. The irrational nature of emotions that are born of sincere connection, fulfilling interaction, and being satiated by their spirit... and yet, my heart...
There is no resolution found here. Just the spilling of a heart which holds people close and far too tightly. But for those who can see beyond the words and into the heart, this is for you.
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There are many men in my life whom I love. They are some of the most incredible people I have come to know. At times I wished we had more time to spend together because being around them filled me with joy, but we all have different lives. So I put my love for them in a box and when they are there, it comes out, and when they are not, I move forward. Each time I put that box away there is a small twinge of sadness, but no regret for what we share.
@SasGal - That was beautifully put and is probably one of the most reasonable approaches I've heard. I think it's the bit of sadness that I have the hardest time managing.
@MyxlDove - For the first few years, I had the same problem. It gets easier with time.
When you love someone, in any way, I truly believe it's never wasted. Whether they reciprocate it or not, I think it serves a purpose. It fills a void and puts goodness out there.
Are you the hopeless romantic type? Perhaps the hopeful romantic type?
Is there not a chat thing on this site?
@seven45 - nope, not anymore.
you mean to say they did? I thought all of these kinds of sights had them.