(DISCLAIMER: Let me apologize up front for the following post. It's just me processing my feelings. I do this on occasion. Please bear with me.)
Sometimes I wonder if words really mean anything. I mean, we exchange thoughts, ideas and emotions with people assuming that the words we use will affect them in some way. Only to look back at miscommunication and relationships that exist only in memories. I've been going over old IM and message conversations with someone who used to be a close friend of mine. Some of them are more than 3 years old. But reading them still evokes the emotion that was poured into the words when they were initially written. Sadly, it makes me wonder if the things I said really mattered, or if the things they said were sincere. Why? Because when someone touches your life in such a profoundly positive way, I can't believe that it's so easy or even possible to forget them or simply cast their memory aside. Maybe it wasn't easy. Maybe it was extremely hard for them. I know that it hasn't been easy for me. I guess that's obvious since I'm still writing about them 3 years later. The only problem is that I will never know for certain if their words were alive or dead since we don't talk anymore. But even so... I sure do miss them a lot.
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